Um, Hello. *clears throat*
I really don't know how to start this.
But yeah, I am finally back.*smiles*
Thank you for sparing a few minutes of your time.
Hope you'll read until the end of this post.
And maybe leave a comment below?
Enjoy :)
Why I went on a long blogging hiatus...
My last blog entry was almost a year ago, and I didn't plan to take a long "blogging break", and also didn't plan to make a comeback all of a sudden. Okay, last year was tough. You know, things went super crazy in my real, adult life, which led me to procrastinate a lot on my alter-ego activities (referring to, but not limited to, blogging, creating content, etc.). My day job got so demanding that it took almost all of my time and energy, thus I can no longer work on most of my personal stuff. Well I can't afford to set it aside because the ball won't keep on rolling without the cash, you know that. But at the back of my mind, I think I am just making some lame excuses for my laziness and lack of time management (that hurts, haha).
Oh I remember, my YouTube channel was newly-launched last year, so I focused more on creating video content and gaining viewers, eventually abandoning this lovely space where I humbly started (Oh I miss this, for real!). And right now, it feels so amazing to finally hit the keys again and write about my thoughts. Honestly, I don't know what to say, really, because my initial plan is just to make an ordinary comeback post --- with a nice product review or maybe share my effective fitness engagements.
But in the end, I decided to make it a personal comeback post. And I hope you'll learn something from this.
What really happened to me last year...
2019 was the year I encountered some of the biggest challenges in my life. And these challenges did not only require me to be patient and understanding, but also to be very dauntless in carrying out a handful of life-changing decisions. It was a balance of the good and the bad; the best and the worst. I know that I am very blessed, yet I still find it hard to totally appreciate everything because tough problems and difficult people continuously hit me hard like wildfire --- so uncontrollable and extremely hard to extinguish. The struggles did not only drain me physically, but mentally and emotionally as well.
Since 2015, blogging has become my outlet to relieve stress. Here's where I share my personal thoughts and experiences freely. And though I'm not sure who my readers are (or if there's any), I'm still happy to let my words float in the virtual space and reach anyone who badly needs them. However, on the last two quarters of 2019, I suddenly lost my interest in blogging. It was so sad, but I can't deny the fact that the flames were already put out; the burning passion was no longer there. Whenever I force myself to write, I usually end up with a terrible output. And so, I paused and had a break.
It took me until early this year to sort things out.
How am I doing right now...
I can't say that 2020 is a great year, because that would be too insensitive for others and even for myself. Though prior to the global scare brought by the current pandemic, I was already receiving a lot of unexpected blessings and surprises. I'm not sure if what I just needed was to be out of the country and live alone in order for me to think things through; work on my craft again, and return with fresher thoughts, better intentions, and renewed purpose. But yeah, I think that was what I needed --- my own time, my own space.
I am now currently in Phnom Penh, Cambodia, working as an expatriate in a long-standing hotel & casino. Probably the biggest and hardest decision I've ever made in my 29 years of existence. But this is something I will never regret today, tomorrow, or even in the years to come. Since I am not only growing my professional career right now, but also improving my physical, mental, and emotional state. And yes, this 180 turn made me reassess my life, my thoughts, and my purpose. It is now helping me to achieve previous goals, set new targets, and pave a better path. It is indeed true that most of the time "a major setback is all you needed to make a fierce comeback".
However, I'm not yet there guys and please don't think that I've already succeeded my inner chaos. I am still working my way through it. But what I can assure you, and even myself, is that I've returned with a brighter and stronger flame. This is me who is loving herself more, understanding other people better, and living with greater intentions. I look forward to share consciously crafted content; be able to inspire everyone to continue living and loving an imperfect life --- because the beauty we are looking for is, and has always been, with us. It will never make our lives perfect, but it can make it worth living.
Thank you for listening.
Glad you've reached the end.
See you on my next blog entry.
Have a blessed day ahead!
